Hi! We are Elizabeth's emotions. We have hijacked her body.

I haven't updated lately because I have had a very bad case of the whys. You know - Why is this pregnancy going so great but Caleb came 13 weeks and 1 day early? Why did Caleb die? Why didn't I spend that Monday with him? Once the why's start, they never end.

This pregnancy is still going perfect. Monster is still comfy and breech. He has this trick that he loves: He'll kick me and give me a nice shooting pain in my cervix. I swear I can hear him laughing sometimes after he kicks me.

My emotions have been crazy. 3rd trimester is kicking my butt! (Yes, I know, I've only been in the 3rd trimester for about 5 minutes.) I'm back to being ok one minute, then mad, and then crying. Fun. Cary is trying so hard to say the right stuff and not upset me. He doesn't understand that it doesn't matter what he says or does I'm just going to be upset. He can say "you are the most wonderful perfect person ever!" and I'll start crying - or I'll get mad at him for talking instead of changing the TV channel. Then I'll be upset because my motherly instinct sucks and Caleb died. Those are the lovely emotions who have hijacked my body.

That's why I haven't been updating.

I'm going to go eat chocolate and watch TV - I hope there's something good on.

Update!

The doctor went perfect today. I heard everything I wanted to hear (except the part when I realized I have now gained a total of 25 pounds).

My cervix has gotten longer! 2 weeks ago it was 37 mm. Today it measured 42 mm. No new restrictions.

Monster now weighs 2 pounds, 2 ounces. He is still breech. He seems very happy like that. The closer his head gets to my ribs, the more I want him to flip. Feet in your ribs is much more comfortable then a head in your ribs.

The ultrasound tech got some good profile pictures of monster today.



I go back to the perinat in 2 weeks. The dr said if I continue to measure long, when I hit 32 weeks they will stop the transvaginal ultrasounds! If I have contractions at that point, they will do an exam. After thinking about it, I think I'd rather have the ultrasounds. The exams hurt!

We made it!

In 30 minutes, I will officially be past where I was when I had Caleb.

At 26 weeks, 6 days with Caleb I was in labor and delivery. At 26 weeks, 6 days with monster, I am having a lazy Sunday at home with a very active monster still in me.

This is about what monster - still inside me - looks like now (minus all the tubes and wires)...

This is Caleb about 1 hour after he was born. He was so tiny.

I go to the perinat Monday at 10:30 AM. I can tell monster is getting bigger and putting more weight on my cervix. I have put myself on kind-of modified bedrest. After work everyday, I come home and lay on the couch. Cary has been great at helping out around the house. Neither of us want me to be on hospital bedrest again. But, I have a feeling real doctor ordered bedrest is right around the corner.

I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am not to be in the hospital now. And to have monster still in me kicking and stretching. My next high-risk milestone is 28 weeks. At 28 weeks, monster will no longer be considered a micro-preemie and I will be in my 3rd trimester*. Can you believe that? 3rd trimester!!

When I was pregnant with Caleb, I was going through reading Your Pregnancy Week by Week every weekend to see what to expect the coming week. I still have my bookmark at week 27. I get to read week 27 now and move the bookmark to next week.

This is a strange place to be in. I know what happens now to preemies outside the womb, but I clueless to what happens inside the womb.

*What to Expect says 28 weeks is the start of the 3rd trimester, Your Pregnancy Week by Week says 27 weeks is the start of the 3rd trimester. I guess I'll find out which one's right Monday when I talk to my doctor.

It's a bird. It's a plane...

It's monster (still in my belly) at the movies!

We went to the movies last night. Monster loved it! He was awake and kicking for most of the movie. He loved it so much, we're planning on going again next week.

Everything's the same here - monster's still happy in my belly and Cary and I are happy he is still there! A healthy baby is so worth the stretch marks.

Monster hiccups!

Finally! After 2 pregnancies I got feel baby hiccups! The day I went to the hospital with Caleb we listened to him hiccup, but I never felt them. Today - just now - I felt monster hiccup!

The doctor went well today. The glucose test stuff was nasty. The RhoGAM shot hurt! I've gained about 3 million pounds. I'm measuring 27 1/2 weeks. (I carried Caleb high too. I guess I just like to carry my babies high.)

This time with Caleb, I was hooked up to fetal monitors and mag sulfate and I wasn't allowed out of the bed for anything. I had seen the attending OB and perinat. The perinat told me my goal was to make it to 28 weeks. He also said to prepare to have a preemie.

Today, I’m not at the hospital! I can get up! I have nothing connected to me! Monster's hanging on! YAY!

Maybe this pregnancy will make it term...