Thursday, May 25, 2006

blogging

I've been trying to blog when I'm happy-ish so this blog isn't depression. That doesn't always happen.

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I was just barely holding on all day. After I work, I had a breakdown. I had enough of a break from the breakdown to update the blog. Then, I found out about this. Some people at my work are friends with this family. I don't like hearing about other babies and children dying. It hurts. After I heard the story on the news, I realized why I had such a hard time all day. One month ago yesterday, Caleb passed away.

I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss him.

See, blog's getting sad again. I'm going to watch some Simpsons and cheer up.

6 comments:

liz.mccarthy said...

Oh Elizabeth, I just found your blog, I'm SOOOO sorry to hear about Caleb...I just posted a beautiful poem for Mother's Day for those of us with Angel Babies....on my blog

My heart goes out to you...Just today driving home, I was hit by a huge wave of sorrow for my daughter Corinne and my dog who we recently had to put to sleep. It's so awful. My heart goes out to you.

(I lost a twin)

www.aLizard.com

Mary Ann said...

Little Bit, you don't have to only blog when you are happy. Sad posts won't drive all of us into deep depression or make us think that you are suddenly a negative person. Bad stuff happens. Bad days take us by surprise... sometimes lots of bad days in a row even! You go ahead and post your sadness (what you can anyway! Some may be too deep and personal to get on "paper"). We want to be here for you and this is one way we can do that. I absolutely hate that you have to be sad and I would change it in a heart beat if I could. But you go ahead and be sad here. Sadness won't change the hopeful tone of your life!! Love you.

miraclebaby said...

I agree about the whole blogging thing. Some of my posts are happy, some are not so much. The thing about blogs is that they are there for those days when you need to get it out. And I bet you anything those entries would help someone else going through the same thing later on down the line. Don't feel bad for not being chipper.

I have been thinking of you so much in the past few weeks and wish there was something I could do to ease what you are going through. Just know that whether you are happy or sad there are people thinking of you and caring about you.

Anonymous said...

Blogging is good for all times. It gives you a chance to express your emotions. And sometimes just getting what you feel out there is good therapy. It is great that you have a friend like Hedda who has been in your shoes and understands everything you are going through. Hope you have a good and restful weekend.
liza

Lucy Henry said...

Elizabeth, there was a lady at church Sunday that came up to me and asked me how you were doing. She said you had been on her mind the last couple of days and she prayed for you each time. This tells me the Lord lays people on our hearts to pray for even when we don't realize we are being prayer for. You just needed an extra touch from God to help you get through a difficult time. Keep the sad and well as happpy blogs coming just list how many tissues we will need before we read it. I love you, Mom

Hedda said...

This blog is getting boring. Blog whatever comes to mind.